it's strange, but i just realized, no matter what i'm going through, i won't cry in front of people, i won't cry when i'm alone, etc. but when i get down to pray or pray to worship music, i start crying. lol. i won't even cry in front of family!

okay, so i wrote this because it just happened, and i forget things easily. this language school (this is the school that needed a teacher one day and i didn't go) actually called me! i didn't think they would because they were the ones that asked me to go in one day, and i didn't. and he was actually trying to meet my every request.

and get this: i had headphones on, because i was starting to pray to music on youtube
and the music stopped loading right when the phone was ringing. it's like God stopped the music so i could hear my phone ring. the person on the phone was the guy from the language school. haha. thanks God!

Sorry for doubting you, even for a second, God....